oh gosh!! dese few daes haven been lucky ferr mii..hav been getting back test papers omost everydae or i shuld sae its everydae!! its sho sick cuz i hate tu see da marks on da paper..its freaking mii out oreadi..had not been realli scoring well ever since i was in sec1..izzit cuz i hav been slcaking a lot or izzit dat da standards at chung cheng ish far tuu high ferr mii?? i dunno..maybe its jush either one of it or maybe both?? definitely..i muz admit i wasnt as hardworking as i was in pri skuu...in pri skuu we were jush afraid if we could fair well n get ninety-plus ferr our exams n wen i was stiu in pri skuu wen mi dad told mii how badly his colleagues's daughter fared..alwaiz getting fifty-plus which was onli borderline..i din noe dat it would be sho difficult n alwaiz thot dat it was no different frm pri skuus..bt i guess i was proved wrong..in fact i wiu be glad if i jush passed..wads da matter wif me?? im jush onli thinking of passing..im not even thinking if i cud get an A1 or sumthin..seems dat we hafta put our expectations lower once we aree in sec skuu.. yeahh..den todae wen back tu skuu n got geog n maths bad..both were horrible..both papers suck!! it was sho unbelievable..i flunked my geog badly badly..sho badly dat i even got a F9..jush feel lyk killing myself..i hav jush stepped intu chung cheng fer onli less den a year n yet im oreadi failing mii subjects..im downright lazee man..but luckily ms soh lay na told us dat dis paper wiu not be counted in SA2 but wiu be replaced by da thinking maps n newspaper articles dat we hav been doing ferr geog..carnt realli rmb dat much but i guess da marks ferr da thinking maps n newspaper articles wiu be much higher den da paper...at least i noe dere wiu not be a F9 in da report book...phew!! but i neverr noe..maybe i wiu jush get an F9 fer my HMT n acc..haix..wonder how much wiu i fare ferr mii chinese...its mii strongest subject n i hope dat i wiu get an A at least tu show mi paretns jush tu cover up ferr da other subjects wer i din fare well..lyk eng..but i was thankful dat i had passed dis subject..at least i noee i wiu not be kicked out of chung cheng..as well as tu cover up my science i guess..dat subject realli suck lyk hell..jush hope dat mi overall wiu be betta cuz dere wiu be sum addition of other tests lyk CA1 n many others lyk class tests n everything..jush hope dat all dese wiu help tu lfit up mi marks fer da overall..maybe dat wiu please mii parents n i wun hav a curfew...it would be miserable tu hav a curfew.. i wiu not be able tu go out wif mi buds tu take neoprints,tu go out n catch a movie..r maybe even catch up wif mi pri skuu frenz...dat wiu be horrible n im gonna be damn bored at home..no holidayy.no outing.jsuh at home.doing wad?doing nothing.maybe i wiu jush stare intu space n i think dats wad im gonna do ferr da rest of mii holidaes..nono!! i carnt think of all dese..i shuld be fine..my results r alwaiz consistently average n i guess dis year ish of no exception tuu..i wiu be alright..i shuld be fine..i think i wiu stiu hav outings.i stiu hav a holidayy. yes i wiu get all dese..i wiu be finee rite?? i stiu hav mnany things not done..i wanna rent vcd wif lexuan n watched it wif her.i wanna take more neoprints.i wanna go out.i wan freedom.yesh.it wiu cum tu mii.wont it?gosh.i sound sho depressed.but i guess i shuld be alright. tml hafta reach skuu at 1115 n meet at da concourse..wonder wads wrong wif da dm tu giv us such timing tu go tu skuu..how mi gonna tell mii parents..daddy,u dun hafta fetch mii tu skuu sho early tml.da dm sae dat we r supposed tu reach dere at 1115.n wad wiu happen if he asks ferr da reason??wad wiu i sae?? im getting back mii results??nono!! u carnt tell dem dat i wiu be dead! besides,i hav no idea y sec1s hafta go tu skuu sho late tml..wad r we gonna do??mr soon oso sae dat we can wear pe n da normal bottom tu skuu..dats a bit odd..but i jush carnt figure it out..guess i wiu onli noe it tml..maybe i shuld jush tell mii parents dat i hav no idea.in fact i realli hav no idea!! but lexuan sae maybe we can go tu skuu earlier tml fer it filming..dat would be sick.besides,wiu da skuu be opened?? i think it shuld be opened cuz da sec2 tu sec4 stiu hafta go tu skuu at normal tym wad..think sho but i can guarantee i wiu not be in da mood tu act at all..dese few daes i hav been sho depressed dat wad i do ish tu jush face da comp every single dayy..but because of da approaching dateline i hafta put aside mii feelings n concentrate on filming.i guess.i carnt jush pull mii whole grp down jush cuz of mii mood.but i think da rest of da members oso din wanna act..i sumhow cud understand their feelings...its jush da exams fault. y carnt da chers give us da papers later n let us haf fun first??haix..owell..all ish done oreadi..wad can i do??maybe i shuld jush keep mii fingers crossed n pray dat i wiu score ferr mi chinese..