okay, today is the second day of e-learning but i havent started on any of today's topics yet. HAHA. cos e-learning has been extended till the whole period of holidays !! yayness. but i shall go do it later :D

went back to school for smo. ohmy. from 8am to 1pm ya know. but karyn and i didnt attend for 2 and a half hours cos we use that time to do the survey, meet up with ahmah for pw and for a short discussion after the consultation.

i had to step down as the pw group leader cos ahmah thinks i am too blur and she cant stand it. she said that whatever that she wanted justification for, instead of searching for it, i removed it totally. but how to justify like how many fish i want in the pool? we put 700 and she said 700? why cannot 699? how to justify? i dont know how to. so i removed it. and that was the shit.

she thinks that i am not cooperating with my group, that i am doing all the work by myself. that if this continues, i will drag the group down. but i never do all the work by my own. i only went to look for ahmah with karyn that fateful day cos she has not returned me the GPP. we handed in last wed but till tues we have not received it back. so i thought it would be best to look for her and try to rectify the problem with the proposal and hand in the next day cos that will be the last day of school by then. i was afraid we wont be meeting her anymore and we cant give her anymore of our drafts.

i admit i have to be at fault too. cos i went to look for ahmah with karyn w/o even telling yunjie and shawn. that was a big mistake. but at that point of time, i thought ahmah changed the whole proposal for me alrdy cos she said during tutorial that she changed my group's proposal and i thought we only need to edit a bit then hand in the next day. i should not have been so silly as to think that she would rly help and change my proposal for me. it ended up with her telling karyn and me about the idea of the travellator and we have to like find out where exactly to place the travellator, how i want the travellator to work, what can consumers do while they are on the travellator ( look at scenery ) etc.

a lot of things had to be done and in my mind, i was like shit. how to hand in the next day then. but because i was so big-mouthed as to tell her what i planned to do ( to edit the proposal and hand in next day ), she made me hand in the proposal next day. she even wanted me to hand in the whole GPP. but i told her that the proposal i was referring to was just the proposal solely, not the whole gpp. then yea, i guess because it was far too rushed, we had a lot of things missed out. like how i removed all the numbers, like the 700 fish, cost of the small towels ... then i didnt justify if the office workers could have the therapy while they were working blah blah.

i guess ahmah was rly pissed with me for all these things that i have done and add on with my blurness, sigh, ultimate. so i gave up my post and shawn is taking over now. i was rather sad to hear about the change of leader but what to do? i cant drag the whole grp down. i wanted to be a good leader but i guess the time is not ripe for me. there are still a lot of things to be learnt.

on the positive side, at least i have one less thing to account for under ahmah. imagine being a cg rep and pw group leader, all under ahmah. ZZZZZ. omg. lucky now left with cg rep. i shall be a good cg rep then. prove ahmah wrong that i am not blur. i rly cant stand it. why is everyone saying i am blur? i dont want to be blur !! i dont want to be blur sotong !! ahh. since pri sch i have been labelled as blur ya know. imagine my agony >.<

so to be a good cg rep, i need to bond my class :) i want a class outing ! peiqi and sinyi said the same thing about gng for steamboat at roxy square. but needa find out if it's halal first cos got atiqah and khairi.. and i want a class tee / jacket ! but i think that will have to be put on hold first cos there is like quite a lot to do during the hols like pw, studying for mye, cca and other activities.. maybe should discuss with desmond first..