i think i had better stop being such a flower idiot (as in hua chi)alrdy. after looking back at my actions these few days, i can conclude that im rly falling head over heels over shawn. gosh. how crazy can i get.

i think i rly change my liking very fast. couple of weeks ago, i was talking to may saying that i like joshua, but now im alrdy into the shawn craze. i do change my perception fast huh? whatever. i just hoped that i wont be too crazy, even my friends could tell too. and they just think im mad. well. i feel that at my present age, i had better learn what is self constriant. i had better learn to control my moods as far as possible. i feel that im still a very kiddy person, like those silly fans out there being such a fanatic of a certain person. goodness. i dont want to be like that.

maybe i shuld just learn to admire him only. as in maybe i can like him but maybe not too crazy. i think im gng bonkers soon if i were to continue being like that. its like sometimes i wonder to myself why should i be crazy over someone who doesn't even know me in the first place? it's like i dont know him and even if i were to meet him on the streets, he wouldn't even say hi to me. ( i had be surprised if he were to rly wave at me o.0 )

yep, maybe i should just think in this way. this is not gna do me any good if i were to continue idolising him or sth. but i rly think his looks are not bad. bleahs. LOL. i dont know what im talking now. just plain CRAP. well. i guess im just being a plain bore here. sorry to anyone who is reading this lame post. i will come up with a more interesting one the next time round.

stop about the shawn thingy now. tml gng to KBOX ! whees. i wna sing ! i wna take the mike and go HIGH ! i just wna have a great time at the kbox, singing songs that i like and go HYPER once more ! let the hyperness be back unto me again ! whees. and it's rare that there's no band on SAT. and it's gna be the same for next wed too ! yayness ! (: