okaye. time is running out for me to type this post so i shall just type a short one here.

anyway, there's a lot of homework to be done esp mr lee's. i have to RE-DO his summary and do a kinda of like a table for the summary thing. gosh ! and he says that the last page which is the supplementary exercise has to be done too. that page alone is gna kill me ! so mnay things like finding out the meaning, constructing the sentence and filling in of the adjectives,verbs,adverbs and nouns of certain words found in the passage. GRR. so much to do on eng alone ! ahh!

and tml there will be this compre test. it's a level test. hopefully, i will do well. guess this is gna be part of the CA marks since there's no english common test. i will be having my chinese oral tml too ! waa... !! such a short notice ! how am i supposed to prepare myself for it ??? gosh. conversation alone is gng to take up 30 marks ! guess i have to mugmugmug tonight. but for now, i shall go watch campus first.. wahahaha(x

went to school in the morning for emath lesson. met quite a number of ppl on the way to school. i saw magdalene first, followed by shang fa and yu ching. hahas. it was like such a coincidence ! lols.

the lesson was okaye. a lil bit dry but don't know why i could actually be so awake throughout the whole lesson. surprisingly. hahas. anyway, wanqi was a lil bit crazy today. she kept on saying 'hao ren you hao bao' and the 'bao' she was actually referring to hugging. so if yu translate it back, it will be 'good person have good hug' ! LOL! xD she wanted to exempt herself earlier from the lesson so that she could go for guitar.. but mrs toh didn't allow. yeah. and she thought she could miss half the lesson and go slack at guitar. hahas. too bad for her ! but like this it had be better cuz she can accompany and talk to me. hahas.

after the emath lesson, took a bus home with gena. so good lah. she can go out today to watch movie with her bn classmates.. guess she must be enjoying the movie while im typing this post at home now. bleahs. forget it. i must quickly go pia my homework and finsh it earlier than her ! hahas.

oh yah. later needa go for tuition too. sians. okayeokaye, that's all for now. i have got nth to blog. byes !


tml gng to singapore poly ! whees:)

anyway, there's loads of homework that needs to be done. and gosh. school is reopening soon and tml there's this emath remedial thing. ahh ! guess i rly have to buck up and quickly complete my homework lur. sighs. seems that i have been returning to school for quite a no. of times during the holidays. it doesn't seem like a holiday to me. oh well. im alrdy sec3. and there's o lvl chinese for me to take this year. guess i rly rly rly have to pia for now>.<

i realised that many ppl have read the recent post i have posted. im sorry if i have provoked or hurt anyone who have read it. im sorry and i didnt mean it to>.<>that post, i was feeling real DOWN. i just thought that im being left out in the whole world. i simply thought that there is no one for me and nobody cares for me at all.

i was at the lowest point of my life and i just feel that life's so boring for me. it seems like a life cycle for me everyday. it's like the same old routine and im so sick of it. i just don't know how to express my emotions then. it's just like mixed feelings? things got even worse when i was being kinda of like "criticised". it was rly saddening that's why i chose to type out to sort of vent out my anger and frustration.

i wonder if it was the right thing to do. i tried to make the font small but ppl could still read it, and worse still, those ppl that i mention in the post read it too. i kinda of feel bad and im sorry for that matter. i was just too sad to think about the consequences that i have to bear later on and in fact when i was typing that post, i didn't rly exactly know the content cuz it was like whatever things i have in mind i just type it immediately so even if i have any spelling errors or what so ever, i have no idea at all. and this is also the reason why i have hurt some ppl out there.

i didnt care about other ppl's feelings then. i just feel like getting all these unhappiness out of my mind. that was my whole motive. never did i know that i would hurt ppl like this. im rly sorry to those that i have mentioned in the post esp _ _ _. SORRY !

sometimes i just wonder if i do have any good qualities or any good points in myself. i just find that im like not good in anything? be it in my studies/sports/music, i just dont seem to find myself good in any aspect. i feel that im so useless. and these few days, i realised that i do not have many friends now. i feel so depressed. looking at the number of friends gena has, i feel so inferior. i have never had this feeling before until i entered secondary3

everything seems to have changed after the streaming. i thought it maybe better for me but it turned out to be worse. i just feel so left out and lonely. and im too tired of my friends arnd me. i told myself to not feel in that way but i cant help it. it's like for eg. may. i just find that sometimes her actions are far too childish and when im troubled or anything, she still continues to tell me things that i dislike or am not interested in. i feel so sick. i tried dropping some hints to her but she dont seem to get it. and im afraid if i were to tell her directly,she would be upset. i just dont know what todo. im so confused.

and things are not rly gng too well in band too. charissa is so out in the section and she doesnt seem to like this section at all. i dont know how to help her to regain her interest in the section. i have no idea of how to help her. and the worse thing now is i cant help myself. nobody seems to like me anymore. like joanne. i used to be quite close to her but now we are like so distant. and today before the talentime audition, she even commented on the choice of my song saying that my choice is always 'very different ' frm the rest. she seems to be criticising me.

and eunice was there saying 'lousy' and all this and that. i was so hurt when i heard about it, i just feel so bad. and then when i held the jiang meiqi and she album, eunice took the she album without even looking at jiang meiqi's one and gena was there laughing 'haha. nobody look at yr album'(referring to the jiang meiqi's one)

i feel so hurt deep down inside my heart. jacie also another straightforward one. today during after frc she said that she was happy with her science results cuz she got 38/50 beating thuiqi and jessica. i ask how much did jessica fare and she say 60. when i told her i scored the same as jessica in sec2, she said that we are of the same kind whihc is like criticising me like that.

and she's like not close to me now. shee's closer to gena and xueli and i just feel a bit jealous. dont know why. i just feeel so alone.,left out. bleahs. only thing i can turn to maybe are just my soft toys. gosh. sighs.